Goodness is Sure to Follow {My Marriage Story}

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Five years ago today my husband and I pledged our wedding vows to each other and started our life as a married couple. We had a beautiful outdoor ceremony shared with our family and friends. Then we embarked on an amazing honeymoon cruise to the Bahamas where we enjoyed sunshine, lots of tasty food, new adventures, relaxing moments and fun times.

We returned from our honeymoon and settled into our peaceful new condo. My Husband started a new job and I continued in my teaching career. A year passed by, my Husband’s birthday was right around the corner, and I was ecstatic to learn the news that I was pregnant. I wrapped the positive pregnancy test in white flowery gift bag and gave it to my Husband as a “birthday” gift. Boy was he surprised when he opened that gift! We were floating on cloud 9 and couldn’t be more in awe of  God’s goodness.

Our precious son made his entrance into this world just six days after we celebrated our 2 year anniversary, and we became a family of three. I became a stay-at-home-mom and the days ahead were filled with sleepless nights, middle of the night feedings, and changing diapers. Though I remember being exhausted beyond what I thought I could handle some days, we were both so grateful for the amazing little life that filled our home and hearts with love and joy.

Just after our son turned two years old, we transitioned into a house with room to grow…another blessing we were (and are) so grateful for. Our son enjoyed new places to explore and play, and a new big boy room with a big boy bed. We have enjoyed settling into our home-sweet-home and look forward to sharing many more good memories in our home for years to come.

Although there have been some rocky roads along our marriage journey, God continues to hold us together and bless us beyond what we deserve.

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I look forward to sharing many more years with my amazing husband and sweet son. I am excited to see God’s plans continue to unfold for our little family. We give Him all the glory for every single blessing and we know that when we put our trust in Him, goodness is sure to follow.

Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen. ~Ephesians 3:20-21 (ESV)

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hannah

Rest in His Love

God is Love

We are loved unconditionally by our gracious God. There’s nothing we can do to make Him love us any more or any less. The more secure we are in His love, the more we can embrace our true identity in Christ. We are sons and daughters of the Eternal King—treasures in His eyes. I hope that you can rest in His comforting love this week-end!

Many Blessing,

hannah

When Loneliness and Love Collide

Make me lonely
So I can be Yours
‘Til I want no one
More than You, Lord
‘Cause in the darkness
I know You will hold me
Make me lonely

‘Til You are my one desire
‘Til You are my one true love
‘Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me

~Lyrics from the song “Keep Making Me” by Sidewalk Prophets

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Make me lonely.

Have you ever desired that? Have you ever cried out those words to God?

I cannot remember a time in my life where my desire was to be lonely, but I can remember times where I have wanted God to take my lonely feelings away.

As a teenager I experienced waves of loneliness. I didn’t like feeling alone. I didn’t like sleeping on a tear-soaked pillow.

As a teenager I also experienced moments of laughter and joy. Good memories and blessings to be grateful for. Yet something felt empty inside of me, and nothing in this world could quench that void I felt.

And then I started to wonder…

Could God be the answer? Was He the one who could transform my broken heart and fill the void in me?

So I started seeking God.

It’s as if my lonely feelings were the very thing leading me to discover the most important relationship that I would experience in my life.

My loneliness collided with the amazing, fulfilling, soul quenching LOVE of God.

And hope…began to shine.

God is love

The more I pursued God, the more I realized that He was already pursuing me. I was not alone. He was with me. He was always with me. I just had not taken the time to acknowledge His presence in my life—until then.

As I opened my heart to His truth, my burdens started to lighten. I began to realize why nothing else had even been able to fill that void in me.

Because nothing else could.

There was a place in me that only He could fill. He created me with a God-shaped-hole, and He created me with it because He desired to fill it.

His love started to fill that empty space in me and my life began to change. My life is still changing.

Make me lonely.

No, I never asked for that. It wasn’t my desire. But God allowed me to feel lonely for a season, because He knew where it would eventually lead me…

Straight into His loving arms.

My teenage years are well behind me and my understanding of God’s love for me continues to flourish. I am in awe that something so beautiful and Holy, could blossom from the most broken places in me.

Nothing is wasted with God.

There are still moments when loneliness creeps into my life. Right now I live and breath motherhood. I love being a mom and I have the most amazing little boy. But not every moment is easy. Sometimes I feel alone in the struggles I face as a parent, and I get discouraged.

When those feelings arise, I can either let them pull me down or I can lay them at the feet of Jesus. When I choose Jesus, He can use those lonely feelings for something good. Maybe it’s to refine me or maybe it’s to remind me how healing it is to simply rest in His love.

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”

~Isaiah 41:10 {NLT}

I am also reminded in the lonely times that this world is not our final home. So if it feels like something is missing, that’s because it is. We were created for something so much better than this world. Jesus conquered death with love, so that we can experience a better world with Him someday.

 “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”

~John 16:33 {NLT}

Loneliness is a gloomy road without God, but there is hope when we surrender our loneliness to God and fall into His loving arms. Our deepest needs can be satisfied by His great love.

hannah

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