A Plea For Grace

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O Lord Almighty, if you will only look upon your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life…

1 Samuel 1:11

A plea for grace from the heart of a woman who desperately wanted to be a mom.  Her name: Hannah, The meaning of her name: “Grace”

As a child, I didn’t really like my name that much. I didn’t know any other Hannah’s growing up and I wanted to have the popular name of the time. When I got older I began to embrace my name and I actually grew to love it. Little did I know how meaningful the word “Grace” would become in my life. Little did I know that I would cry out to God with a plea for grace like the one made by Hannah in the Bible.

 God put a passion in me to love kids and being a mom has been a desire of my heart for as long as I can remember. My childhood was a mixture of joy and brokenness. Out of the painful part came a desire in me to help other children discover just how special they are. I baby-sat during my teenage years and went on to become a teacher. My long-term hope was of course to have kids of my own.

A year before I met my “now” husband, he was in a motorcycle accident which left him paralyzed. We went into our marriage knowing that possibility of children was not in our favor because of his injury.  This scared me a little…actually A LOT at times. Even so, I knew that God had been victorious in my past and in my heart I trusted that God would help us climb the steep mountain ahead.

Have you ever wanted something so bad in your life that seems so out of reach? Do you ever find yourself wondering the question, “Why God?”

As my husband and I faced what seemed like the impossible, I couldn’t help but ask the question “Why God?” God doesn’t usually answer that question for me but he does offer a peace that passes all understanding {Philippians 4:7} and a reminder that:

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

So I hoped. I prayed. I cried out to Jesus.

I made a plea for grace, knowing that God always hears our prayers even though he doesn’t always respond in the same way. There have been times in my life where God has answered my prayers with a “No” and times he has answered with “Wait.”

This time he answered me with a “Yes!”

Just 16 months into my marriage and I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw the at-home pregnancy test come back positive. I took the test 3 times because I didn’t believe it! When Hannah in the Bible found out the good news that she was pregnant, her heart was filled with gratitude:

My heart rejoices in the Lord…for I delight in your deliverance.

1 Samuel 2:1

My heart felt similar when I found out that I was pregnant. I’m grateful today that 30 years ago my parents decided to name me Hannah. I’m not saying that I have some special access to grace because of the meaning of my name. I don’t. Grace is a gift that God offers to all of us if we choose to receive it. 2000 years ago Jesus died on a cross for the sins of this world and by his grace alone we can have the gift of eternal life if we accept it.

When we make a plea to God he does hears us. It doesn’t mean that we will always get the answer we want. Sometimes doors will close and we will be disappointed. I don’t understand those moments and I don’t have the answer to why God says “no” sometimes. However, I try to be thankful for the times that God does extend his mercy towards me.

In 2010 God answered my plea with a “Yes.” He blessed my husband and I with the miracle of a son and granted me the title of “Mommy.” I didn’t do anything to earn this gift; It was given to me by grace alone.

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© Pocketful of Motherhood, 2013

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11 thoughts on “A Plea For Grace

  1. As we watched Vince grow up, we oftened prayed for his future wife, We had no idea she would be growing up not far away. We prayed that God would protect her, protect her heart and soul. We prayed that God would choose a wonderful Christian woman and that Vince would recognize God’s choice.

    After Vince’s accident, we knew that it would be a VERY special woman who would be willing to accept the extra challenges of life. She would need to have a heart of compassion and a gentle spirit. We all knew that children were a slim possibility – a sacrifice of hope – as both Vince and Hannah obviously loved children. Praise God for this little miracle Micah!

    YIPPEE! God answered our prayers when you entered our family!! What a blessing you are to ALL of us, dear Hannah. We love you bunches!! Sherman & Eunice

  2. I love the name Hannah, as well as the name Grace, and when I was pregnant both times, had it been a girl,I wanted to name her Hannah Grace. Its a beautiful name with a beautiful meaning and this post is beautiful. God knows the desires of our hearts and He knows exactly what we need, who we are, and who He calls us to be. Grace is a theme of my life, of all of our lives. What an amazing testament to God’s love, grace, mercy and fulfillment of promises in our lives.

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